Hi friends, family, neighbors, colleagues, strangers,

It’s been quite a year, both in the big world and in my smaller world. I have been thinking a lot lately about what it means to write a­ letter that attempts to bridge from one moment in time to another, to review a year. It’s impossible, of course. It is now only a series of stories I tell about my year, our year. The year in my house, my company, my city, my country, on my planet. I can recount memories, and I note the expectation that I list “accomplishments.” But none of that feels vaguely important when there is such a present as this.

In the face of what we are going through in our various communities, aligned and repelled by our politics, art, race, gender, belief, and ideologies, the only thing I can recount is that I have loved this year. Not, “I really loved this year!” But rather, in this year, I have loved. I have loved my children fiercely. I have loved my students with devotion and delight. I have loved my teachers and peers at Laban Institute for Movement Studies, where I have spent the past 4 months deeply immersed in the first half of a year-long training. Loved my husband, only more after 12 years and many ups and downs.

Working In The StudioAnd at the heart of my love this year has been the company, and the work we are making. I love it. It has broken me open and scared the crap out of me, but I love it. It has made itself, in front of me, almost without needing me there, but I have stayed anyway, even when it asked me to kindly leave the room. It has collapsed in my arms, exhausted from trying to keep growing. It has given me the finger. It has woken me up at night with very strange dreams. It has nodded at me almost imperceptibly from across a crowded party.

I hope you will come and join me in the theatre at La Mama in June when we share it. I look forward to sending those invitations. For now, keep on with your loving, whatever it is that you love. Keep on with your fight, whatever you’re fighting for. I’m thinking of you, even if I don’t know you, because I feel the weight of us strongly these days, whatever the us may be.

We all know what the end-of-year letter was created for. Maybe you need an extra tax deduction before the end of 2014 and you can be convinced to send that to your local struggling artist. That is all true, but there are truer things I hope you will take away from this. I am writing to connect, to catch up, and to be real. This is not a tactic. If, in addition to taking the time to read this, you realize, “hey, actually I do have a bit to spare, or I do want to contribute to this new work or I do need a tax deduction,” then you can certainly connect with me in that way, and I will use that money to rent space and pay dancers, and musicians and collaborators. And I will be sincerely grateful for your help. But you can also write back and tell me something about your year, some words that come to mind, give me advice (but no parenting advice please. I’m all set there) or send me a picture of something you love.

milkdreamsBelow is a short clip of the company performing milkdreams, which is all created from material from my children, and has taken us to a new place in ourselves.

To view a clip of the work in process, click here.

To make a contribution to the company, click here.

To send me anything else, write to me at Alexandra@alexandrabellerdances.org

Happy year, happy present moment, lots of love,


Part Time Development Associate Needed
→  Brooklyn, NY

Alexandra Beller/Dances is seeking a part-time development associate. Responsibilities include researching grant opportunities, assessing eligibility and desirability of projects for various funders, writing and submitting grants, communicating with funders and receiving feedback before and after grant submissions, collaborating on development strategies, developing the Board, and engineering fundraising events that are outside the traditional benefit/grant archetype. Currently there are approximately 15-20 hours of work per month, flexible hours, and paid per project (to be negotiated based on mutual needs). We are looking for someone with experience in the field of fundraising and grant writing and knowledge of the contemporary arts funding community (relationships with funders, especially NYC funders, a plus!). Our work is provocative, political, powerful and radical and we are looking for someone who can be passionate about it and engage in the artistic questions in a personal way when dialoguing with funders. We are looking at least a one year commitment with interest in staying with the company for a longer period and developing the job into a salaried position.

Alexandra Beller/Dances is a 501 (c) 3 non-profit dancetheater company. We have a great deal of template material already written as well as professional level promotional materials, so the job is mainly about targeting grants appropriately, fine tuning and detailing proposals towards specific funders as well as brainstorming activities and ideas for future fundraising. Information about the work and company is available at www.alexandrabellerdances.org. Please email Alexandra at Alexandra@alexandrabellerdances.org for more details and inquiries about the position.